Be Strong, Believe

being sick sucks. i've been coughing up weird-tasting phlegm all morning, and i can still sense it on my breath. it also comes with breathing difficulties and an incipent fever that i stopped from breaking with acetaminophen and a dose of DotA.

wish i could find company to see Madagascar. looks like a lot of fun! in fact, today would have been the perfect day to go if not for the rain. oh well... tts life

Believe - Yellowcard

Will That Be All?

really wiped... perio test coming up tomoro. have rammed in as much as i can. now all thats left is to watch shaman king and get some shuteye...

hope i can get setup of teeth approved by tomoro. aiming to get the waxup done as well. and next week i can invest and pack and let my damn dentures cure and it will be happiness for all! need to clear this so that i can start seeing my full patients... the management is killing me!

Coming Closer - L'Arc En Ciel

Blue Sky Surprise

once again, doing late blogging. saturday was a real tiring day, midnight DotA the night before combined with a whole day at Toa Payoh. but i think it was a day pretty well spent. besides all the OHI given, you really get to see the way people work... got persuaded by Shunting to check my blood sugar. ok... fair deal. basically it involves taking an auto-lancet and piercing a finger to draw blood, then using an automated machine to analyse said blood's glucose concentration. 5.9 apparently, inside the physiological range. and then she proceeded to wipe my finger with an alcohol swab. like... bloody hell! it actually hurts. and when i asked why she does this routinely, she said its because her seniors do it. not really the way i wanna practice... and haemostasis should not be achieved using tissue paper! it sticks to the clot, and when you try to remove it the clot will tear.

watched Star Wars III during the 2nd shift at Toa Payoh. seats arent too bad, the usual Eng Wah standard. the movie itself... 3.5 on 5 i suppose. sure, its got swooshy lightsaber duels and all, but the plot development was a letdown. like how Anakin is just so easy for Palpatine to manpulate. what a weak character! way too sudden... Natalie Portman was also rather under-deployed, basically just there to smooch and die. in the hands of another director, with a script more developed, this might have risen higher. as it is, there was potentially enough material in there for another hour of film time.

just got back from the HC String Ensemble concert. really does remind me of the days when i used to play in concerts. cant say i dont miss it... the music was competent but not outstanding due to a lack of dynamics. Alicia and Debra the Violin Girls got solos, and they were good! shoulda gotten more airtime, the other quartet and quintet performances were rather sub-par. but hey.. for $7 whos complaining?

Tempo Impetuoso D'Estate - HCSE feat. Alicia Boo

I Dont Wanna Go Back Home, But I Dont Wanna Be Alone

i think school is just making me feel lower and lower. besides not having a person to bitch to (yeah a blog is not a person) 2 members of my DotA brotherhood are out of play. GF's com is messed up, and Stan's TFT CD is not with him.

i swear, for the life of me, bilateral balance has me baffled. i seem to be incapable of making the damn teeth in the denture line up for me and touch where i want them to. its been way too long to balance the blasted, infernal contraption. crowns rock, man. they just touch and they work. invest and cast and youre on your way to happiness. but noooo.... stupid dentures.

Ber contacted me about doing following spotlight for SMU's production of Anything Goes. looked like some kinda vaguely fun thing to do in the holidays, so i'll be checking the dates tomorrow with Dean's Office to see if im free. hope it turns out good!

I - Pug Jelly

The Only Person Singing Me To Sleep Is Myself

the DotA brotherhood were having a little OT talk in BNet one night and the content of my blogs came up somehow. yeah... so mebbe i am a bit of a drama mamma. but i believe in writer's integrity, and i wont edit my blog contents after they have been posted unless there are spelling errors. and the feelings and thoughts that pertain to me are always from the bottom of my heart.

finally, a positive food review! Sin Hoi Sai Eating House in Tiong Bahru is the kind of place where restaurant chefs go to eat. i have yet to taste a bad dish from their establishment. besides their famed chilli crab, other dishes such as watercress soup, prawn-paste chicken and chilli kang kong are robust, flavourful and definite must-haves. please visit this place.

was surprised by a song playing on 93.3 on the way back home, cos its not often they play english songs, and this one was a classic. the chordwork just impressed itself on me as the song of the day...

It Must Have Been Love - Roxanne

Burnout

just went for dinner... it was a sad affair. the XO Fish Beehoon at HV tastes like crap! after a 6-month-long period of not going there, i was shocked. the beehoon had no bounce, instead breaking apart easily. there was way too much XO in the soup, masking the flavour of the milk. the only thing left was the fish, which was thankfully still okay. at five Yusof Ishaks a bowl... not really my idea of culinary value for money. gross.

why cant there be 30 hours in a day? theres so much to do, and not enough time to do it. and i really want to watch Star Wars III...

California - Love Psychedelico

Tugback

i guess it was the lonely dinner of Hongkong Mee in Enclave that kinda settled it for me. feeling too down to go for SF, feeling too down to do just about anything now. i havent had too many desperately low days in this term, but i guess this is one of them.

i really believe that i'm happiest by her side, and i cant apologise enough for all the screwups and mishaps that i visit on her through my clumsiness, ineptitude and bad temper. to see her smile is like seeing a rainbow, her laughter is like a sunbeam shining through the departing clouds of a rainstorm. so much stands between us, and yet it is all but idealogical. i may stand beside her and yet feel the great gulf that separates our hearts. am i destined to admire from the shadows for the rest of my life? relief has yet to come to me, the flame that lights my heart burns so strong that none other has yet to take its place to light up my black little heart. as much as it pains me to consider this, there is the part of me that doesnt want the flame to be extinguished, ever. and, perhaps, all i will have is the smiles and laughter of a blissfully ignorant friend whom my heart beats for.

Me And My Imaginary Friend

guess today was eventful enough to blog about! saw a yellow file patient, and got to play pool for the first time in like forever.

Dr Thean had some yellow file patients arranged for RP today. these are the comunity patients who dont have the cash to pay for NUS Student treatment even, a lot of the work they do is free of charge, except for, as i recall, fixed prosthetics. and these guys all needed stuff done. they came in in various states of treatment, from try-in of wax dentures to my one who had some e-stuff done, an exo to be exact, but requires a whole new upper full and a lot of perio work on the lower. and the perio... this is the first time i've ever seen a Grade 3 mobility. and i had to scale it... despite Dr Thean's offhand assurances i was a bit worried the damn thing would drop out while i was ripping Great-Wall calculus off of it with an anterior sickle, it was that shaky. and yeah, the calculus and plaque was just amazing. i found a massively deep carious cavity while prodding in the plaque while doing E&D, all hidden in the plaque. i dont know if we'll end up treating this one or just extracting. funny enough, its a lot firmer than a lot of the other teeth, which are intact but shaky.

went out with Char after school. dinner at Thai Express was ok... food was fine but the service... i think the staff dont like me, they seem to have a thing for ignoring my hand. and i got stalked by Mao and Shafiq and Stan. went for pool after, and damn well nearly won her. i need more practce dammit, my play is way too inconsistent. not like i'll be able to get any games in during the month she's in the US though. dammit...

Hopelessly Devoted To You - Olivia Newton-John

I'm Cleaning Out My Closet...

Happy Mother's Day!

and on that note, i'd like to write a bit about mothers. today Uncle Robert gave a testimony about his late mum. it was a different generation, the war generation to be exact but mothers are really the under-appreciated people in our society. they raise the children, and in the chinese family paradigm yer more likely to find people with impressions of their mums than their dads. not that this is the best or the healthiest situation but such is their power. even now i think a lot of the families are being held together by mothers who basically do everything possible...

was up on stage playing the prelude when Josh nudged me...

Josh: omg its teh GURMITZ!

me: simi? gurmit singh?! where?! where?!

and the dear chap had his back turned to me for like 2 min as i tried simultaneously playing flute without looking at my score while trying to spot him. it turns out that Gurmit Singh is somehow related to the aforementioned Uncle Robert, and was visiting for the week. he got mobbed by little kids at lunchtime asking for autographs lol.

Jo is in the states now, havent heard from her. according to her blog she had delays and missed connecting flights and all sorts of happening things. sheesh, all the fun while im here stuck w clinics...

Time Of Your Life - Green Day

*good luck for crown prep guys.. but then again luck has nothing to do with it*

To Another Sliding Step

think that even though things have been pretty rough, enough interesting things have happened that i should get down to the sadly neglected blogging.

i finally got to find out my crown competency results. in spite of the awful work, i passed. quite amazed because of the number of critical flaws contained therein. the endo test died though, and that means that my endo knowledge isnt up to scratch by a very large margin. so much to work on, so little time. at least something went right though.

the stress is still pretty bad. Lulin said that i lost weight, and i dont know if its the schoolwork or the food poisoning episode i had. or whether emotional matters have been weighing on my subconscious. i know that a lot of the class is still very withdrawn and many are in various states of sickness. so many are eating meagre packed lunches in the faculty... its freakish. and we havent even actually entered year 3.

For The Future - Do As Infinity