I'm Not Strong Enough

finally finally got to watch The Incredibles! muchos gracias to roach-sama for getting me along to watch, even if its to keep his brother company while he's out with XX *koffkoff* but hey, i'd say that this show is a strong contender for movie of the year.

it was touching, it was human, it was incredible. there simply wasnt anything there not to like. the characters were well-thought out and could be seen developing through the film. the animation was of course top-notch, and flowed beautifully. and i'm damn glad i watched it. to whoever i tried to ask out to watch it and turned me down, hurry up and go watch it! makes it feel like im really having a holiday!

spent the whole freaking day earlier in the lab. i got my teeth made up all pretty, my RPD masters are remounted. i am at peace with the world. and i even washed my clinical sorting tray and packed my hand instruments and oiled my handpieces, even the straight one. i feel so domesticated!

windsurfing tomorrow! time to get a tan and all that jazz. its great to get the holiday activities started, only complaint is that no-glasses activities seriously curtail my babe-spotting capabilities.

got a new CD! just have to find the time to listen to it. hooray for Jpop!

Musical Interlude

this post is dedicated to my friend who got bitten by her dog... pls try not to kick the dog every time this happens. im sure it aint good for the animal's mental health, no matter how much better you feel after that. good training and handling should be able to remove the dog's undesirable habits lah, not sure what kicking it will do tho. maybe make it bite more? haiz...

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My Favourite Things

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Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens

Bright copper kettles and warm woollen mittens

Brown paper packages tied up with string,

These are a few of my favorite things.
Cream coloured ponies and crisp apple strudel,

Door bells and sleigh bells and schnitzel with noodles

Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings,

These are a few of my favorite things.

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Girls in white dresses and blue satin sashes,

Snow-flakes that stay on my nose and eye-lashes,

Silver white win-ters that melt into spring,

These are a few of my favorite things,

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When the dog bites,

When the bee stings,

When I'm feeling sad,

I simply remember my favorite things,

And then I don't feel,

so bad.

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My Favourite Things - Julie Andrews

The Value Of A Millimetre

sometimes, to be just a bit off is not enough to achieve what you want. an extra millimetre in your isthmus reduction may doom your restoration. half a second in a sprint may lose you the gold. a low powder/water ratio will doom the meat sauce for the meatballs you bought from ikea. know the value of a millimetre by heart, and what it means to you.

teeth sitting in the moulds now, hope they didnt drift during the mounting! spent the better part of the morning getting them arranged. my anteriors are ugly as hell, forsee having a hell of a time making them look pretty. and starting to get my RP remounted. damn happy that Dr Thean declared my bite to be okay with the lower try-in denture at least... once i get the upper and lowers related i can get on with cementation and all that jazz.

its been like 2 and a half days since the hols started. am i the only one who hasnt done anything happening? arrrgh! wanna watch The Incredibles but cant find anyone. feel like a fricking leper...

I'm A Dreamer - Amber

*sure i dont know what she's singing, but i like the tune and the voice*

Lazy Sunday Afternoons

just had a mega-nap! wow... should get these more often! the holidays have just kicked in, now have to find a way to gainfully waste my time with the maximum possible fun factor! or get some kinda cash.

was pleasantly surprised when i found out that Debra The Violin Girl listens to Do As Infinity! never got to talk to her a lot, so it was pretty funny when we were ragging her backstage during the testimony time. gonna swap CDs with her nex sunday. mmm... new audio obtundency...

damned if i dont feel like a fool again for trying to test the Katzung conjecture. tomoro after the lab session seemed like a perfect time... then ran headlong into a herd mentality barrier.

still havent gotten to fix the cheesy script. its the best application of the term deus ex machina i've eve, ever, ever seen. and why am i like the only one i know who knows the term?

in two minds as to whether i should buy the Sixpence None The Richer compilation CD... any advice people?

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Happy Birthday Monkey!

It Aint Just A Difference Between White And Yellow

the jury have come to a decision: yellow stone is indeed better than plain plaster for undercut blocking. its neater, better behaved and is harder upon set. pity i had to waste time with the plaster cos i didnt know of the whole drum of the yellow stuff on the top shelf.

after a really crap orchestra session, i am now contemplating quitting. its been going on long enough... the point is, where does one differentiate determination and stupid self-torture? God's will and self-delusion? when do you cast the lifeboats and flee the sinking ship? and just when i needed movie therapy no-one was free. damn

ran into some juniors while random shopping. it seems like forever since i saw them, they can remember doing funny things that i dont and i think im getting old and losing my memory. and i swear that Eileen looks like Mrs Aw! omg the resemblance is uncanny! i also realise that the more i learn in school, the more i can spot. sometimes its so bad i want to give OHI on the spot. lucky im more tactful than i used to be...

Anqi's probably in Jie Lun Heaven now, even as i speak. it was quite cute seeing her eyes get starrier and starrier as the minutes ticked by. can't say she hasnt earned the right to have fun tho. lucky girl!

got my song requests to Tien. see if she can rustle up Fly Me To The Moon or Eternal Flame for the karaoke thingy. no hidden meanings, im just familiar with the words.

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Wonderwall

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Today is gonna be the day

That they're gonna throw it back to you

By now you should've somehow

Realized what you gotta do

I don't believe that anybody

Feels the way I do about you now

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Backbeat the word was on the street

That the fire in your heart is out

I'm sure you've heard it all before

But you never really had a doubt

I don't believe that anybody feels

The way I do about you now

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And all the roads we have to walk along are winding

And all the lights that lead us there are blinding

There are many things that I would

Like to say to you

I don't know how

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Because maybe

You're gonna be the one who saves me?

And after all

You're my wonderwall

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Today was gonna be the day

But they'll never throw it back to you

By now you should've somehow

Realized what you're not to do

I don't believe that anybody

Feels the way I do

About you now

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And all the roads that lead to you were winding

And all the lights that light the way are blinding

There are many things that I would

Like to say to you

I don't know how

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I said maybe

You're gonna be the one who saves me?

And after allYou're my wonderwall

I said maybe

You're gonna be the one who saves me?

And after all

You're my wonderwall

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Said maybe

You're gonna be the one that saves me

You're gonna be the one that saves me

You're gonna be the one that saves me

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Wonderwall - Oasis

*sparked by a spontaneous singalong in B cluster...*

Scars Are Made Up Of Fibroblasts That Got Too Close

radio went down the drain. coulda sworn my mid-saggital was bang-on for my DPT, but its a moot point now. hate this empty, drained feeling. i want to feel happy for PJ, who just needs news on whether she cleared her bitewing (which we always get Grade 1s for), but inside i feel all dull. and feeling sad does nothing for my failure. just have to hang tight until next term so that i can go for round 2. and not cock up my alignment. really need a hug. damn this.

Wan Wah got her birthday present from us, looks good as when we tested it! she says she'll be wearing it for class on saturday. now Shafiq and me just have to figure out how to tell her about some other critical outfitting adjustments *coughcough*. and also chase the shareholders for money...

did some preliminary reading for optec in the library. damned if i never realised ive been manipulating my stupid TBR wrong all the time! see if i can get something done about that after the optec test tomorrow.

It's My Life - Bon Jovi

*in the mood for a howl-at-the-sky kinda song now*

Backfired Gambit

bwaah... the DM test was a rape, cos of the negative marking. looks like i fluffed a lot of the mcq. and even after my essay was, in my opinion, a fricking masterpiece! such is life... perverse!

catapulted yet another 24 onlay provi! it had a long and checquered history today.... it fell down the sink and Lulin and Siwen helped me drain the filter cascade to find it. and just as i was adjusting occlusion for show-up... it decided to bolt for freedom. damn.

totally excellent DotA session! 3 come from behind games, and a little experience with a character ive nevr tried before. the Naga Siren has crit-strike that kicks in at a 45% chance per hit at x1.5. is that kewl or what? love floaty red numbers! the mirror image still needs a bit or work, and also ways of pwning blinkers.

radio tomoro! feeling like dressing to impress, need the psychological edge. must pass on first attempt with flying colours!

attempts at formulating an experiment to test the Katzung Conjecture have failed again. sadness... makes me wonder why i try!

Fly Me To The Moon - Frank Sinatra

Stille Nacht

6.30pm in the library the night before the DM test and i cant find the willpower not to fall asleep every alternate page i study. looks like this one is gonna be ugly...

got 2 provis signed today! woots! and the last 2 are just that close to completion. labtech introed a straight handpiece bur that i never noticed... its t3h l33tz0r! great for margin work and i dont have to fool araound with discs.

mass ponning for patho. a grand total of 12 survivors in the audi listening to the lectures. not very good... i'd say the usual 17k thing but you've all heard it before.

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a lunchtime conversation, accurate in spirit although not verbatim:

jon: waah, taby, you're going for patho? so good girl arr?

taby: yeash. so many people not going, so i should go. wait the lecturer get demoralised.

*20 min goes by*

[enter nijam]

*nijam makes steering wheel motion to taby*

taby: nijam! you're going home? hey, can you send me back! peijun! lets go home!

pj: wait for me! jon, you want my milo?

[exeunt nijam, taby, pj]

*jon's facial expression: o__O;*

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but yeah, the milo was pretty nice. AQ sez its another reminder that people can be fickle. and a little inconsistent? such is life!

Eternal Flame - The Bangles

*Atomic Kitten spoiled this song. screw them, i like the original*

Racing Through My Brain, And I Just Can't Contain It

mmm... really cute girl sitting nearby in the library. not say the chioest girl within five miles, but she's got a really cute smile!

overstuffed myself at dinner. hokkien mee and chicken rice makes for happy overkill! seems like my weigh keeps fluctuating across the course of the week according to the weighing scale in the NUH loading bay. wierd...

microbe was severely underattended today. makes me wonder... why do i bother? it seems like i try to do the right thing, and people will run off from class, and still outscore me. and deep down inside i think its silly that i should skip class when my father and mother are paying, what 17k a year? and im damned if i cant score for fricking pharmaco. 3rd lowest in class! arrrrrgh!

too full to study effectively now. i could do with a bag of chocolate chip cookies and a glass of milk. or a bubblebath and some tom yam noodles.

the latest song for Lee Hwa's tv ads is There She Goes by Sixpence None The Richer. reminds me of that time when i was still in JC, and their hot song was Kiss Me. which is, to date, the only song i can fully strum on a guitar. Dui Mian De Nu Hai does not count. damn i miss those days, when life wasnt complicated, when honour and duty meant marshalling traffic in the rain on a tuesday morning, when friends meant impromptu harmonising sessions with the girls between tutorials, when birthdays meant heaving the celebrant into the pool after cutting the cake. now honour and duty means sucking things up and going the right path even as friends around you succumb to the dark side, friends means being unable to find people in class willing to go down when you play in the easter musical, and birthdays mean a rushed sing-song session at lunch and one guy buying a present and canvassing for funds from the rest of the class. screw this.

There She Goes -Sixpence None The Richer

God Made Wonderful Things Called Tadpoles

had a pretty interesting sermon today about childraising. even though its like not even on the horizon for me, i've always been sorta fascinated by childraising. how you do it, and how it can go wrong, and what effects it has on a child's makeup.

children should see more tadpoles when theyre young and impressionable. before people tell them that frogs are slimy and icky. that the praying mantis is gross. that crickets are dirty. that the tree lizards might have funky viral diseases. so that they can just soak up how amazing the little things in life are. so they can wonder in how perfect the tadpoles in God's green earth are. they dont have to know about the complexities of the mating ritual, the mucous skin as an oxygen exchange surface, the control of the apoptosis that allows the tail to be resorbed. they just have to see it and be amazed. and not freak out and run away. this will prepare them for life. because the ability to be amazed, to absorb, to learn without worrying about getting dirty and being silly is what we need today. to think out of the box, to expand horizons, to understand and manipulate beyond the printed page. this is true life as a scholar. not the musty pages in the library, or the hypnotic drone in the lecture hall.

and on a related note, i am more man than the sum total of my test and exam results would imply. so there.

Bear, Stephen and Tracey were at my church this week, temporary refugees from PPCC. just their luck to be there on the week when it was the Children's Ministry Awareness Week! got to talk a little bit to Tracey cos she was bored while Bear was bouncing around in his usual hyperkinetic way doing the hi-hi rounds. she said she never knew i was full of crap. which makes me wonder... did i change quite a bit since i left PPCC in J2? or was i just restrained, since she never saw me much except with my ex?

I Believe - Tata Young

*sure, its a bimbo song. i just like the tune*

Mother, What Is A Half-Demon?

just got back from Shafiq's little Hari Raya cookie binge. what an afternoon! think i overdid the cookies tho, since surprisingly PJ, Taby and Mao were all going light on the food. also had a long conversation of the brotherhood on the way back from Bedok. its amazing what you miss when you arent seeing things clearly...

destroyed my stupid master cast for RPD in a moment of inspired clumsiness. so once i get my c-clasps bent up, i'll be surveying and blocking all over again. somewhat pissed about it... but life has its ups and downs. its not the ups and downs that matter, but how we respond to them. this differentiates the victim from the survivor.

next week is DM. and the content is so much i just hope i can absorb it all. looks damn near impossible... and im still out of my groove. at least it isnt as abstract as pharmaco.

am i too aggressive sometimes? in school? out of school? in conversation? in practice? is it desirable? is it counterproductive? its me! vindicated, i am selfish, i am wrong, i am right, i am right, and i knew it all along! muahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!

Whup-ass Comes Canned In 3 Different Flavours! Buy Now To Avoid Disappointment!

another amazingly long day with its fair share of ups and downs. took these shades i found at the enclave bus stop to school for appraisal under the semi-expert eyes of Mao and Shafiq. the conclusion: an excellent pirate version of Oakley Minute frames. for me to wear when the sun shines in my eyes. obviously not very often these days...

radio was okay, but i didnt get to practice bisecting-angle cone placement. that means i have zero practice with this technique, and competency is next week. nothing like a challenge! *rawr* was rather embarrassed during radio when i was trying to talk about extraction of 8s. wanted to mention Wanyi but Anqi's name popped out twice. dammit.... and now pple will think the slip is Freudian.

Group 6 got raped during the fluorides presentation. i'll be damned... the group before us got off real light, but when it came to q&a for us we got seriously raped by Prof Hsu. and if Daysleeper is reading this... dont worry. we seriously arent pissed at you. the group isnt upset at your questions per se, its upset at our bad performance in general. and the smooth-brain shit-stirring questions did not come from you. its a lousy feeling when you get caught underperforming. and i have got to say that i havent been in my groove lately. no mood, no energy, no retention...

the water treatment plant was hot! a chance to deploy my Fakeleys. its amazing how... gross reservoir water is. i feel somewhat more at peace with the footrot the dear darling SAF gave me after scheduling 2 dips into 2 separate reservoirs in the space of 3 days. but that doesnt stop the irritation that i get from the peeling skin on my right foot and the fluid-filled blister type early fungal lesions i get after wearing shoes the whole day. dammit...

had a nice chat with PJ on the way home. seems like i hardly get deep conversations with anyone these days... its just so rushed in school and noone is online any more. its quite sad really... i do believe its important to forge the relationships in this class, at least make a few good friends, because i want to know who i can count on when we go into the jianghu.and who will be worth teaming up with, and who i can help.

had another sidetracked SF session. Uncle Jason went into the significance of Yom Kippur as a mutli-faceted reminder of sin and the role of Christ. ran off after prayer to go home. anime was cool! major character developments in 12 Kingdoms and Inuyasha. Yoko is finally getting some balance, and isnt either a soppy wuss or a psychopath any more. and Inuyasha now has the Tetsutaiga sword... abeit in its crappy un-potentiated form.

if i were a cartoon or comic or anime character, i really wouldnt mind being Inuyasha. hes got all the character rough edges, likes pwning stuff, and has kewl hair and a swooshy magic sword! and it would only get better if she could accompany me as Kagome...

Change The World - V6

Just Two Can Solve Its Mystery, Why Should It Make A Fool Of Me?

i think i truly do have a talent for catapulting provis. another 24 onlay provi lost to the outer darkness. and it truly wasnt too bad a piece of work, tried Dr Wong's preload idea and the proximal boxes came out real pretty. damn... also catapulted PJ's 13 provi while trying to show her the buffer. spent 15min hunting for it, including feeling in the sedimentation cascade under the sink and stripping the buffer filter. and in the end it was discovered in a plastic-lined bin under the buffer. PJ now owes Stan lunch.

and for the record, at 1525 on 171104, PJ said that if desperate she would even stick her hand in a toilet bowl, much less the sedimentation cascade.

last pbl w Dr Thean. sadness... pbl is much more educational than so many of the other classes. the integration of knowledge is handy, as well as the insights provided by clinicians. and after the pbl we got to see Dr Thean reline a denture.

AQ had to run off at lunch to go get her ear attended to. quite amazes me how many health issues there are related to the female form... in this case metal allergies. but as she confessed, she cant keep away from cheap earrings. nice earrings for christmas? mmmm...

looks like my stupid 18 is finally coming out. i can feel the dp cusp through the mucosa. dammit hurry up and come out and stop shifting my MI around! its damn distressing when you realise one day that your contact points have shifted. it was bad enough when my upper arch got so crowded that i now have a hell of a time flossing.

what do you know that you think you know and i suspect i know but dont know if i know specifically? and why are you playing mind games with me? do you even read this stuff?

One Of Those Things - Cole Porter

Sun-tanned, Wind-blown...

would you believe the fricking blogger website ate my entry and i have to retype it? nooooooooooo! swine!

pharmaco is finally over. thereapeutic DotA session, and then down to business for the DM test. and i'd like to state for the record that i truly hate negative marking.

catapulted my stravag provi into the outer darkness for the 2nd time. mucho wailing and gnashing of teeth over the forced redo, esp since i was like that close to showing up with it. damned if i aint gonna find a way for that not to happen before i go to the clinic. and polycarb crowns are stupid and ugly and badly contoured. teeth never come in standard sizes aniwei.

one day i will be a prostho deity like HH and PY. wax will flow at my command. TBR will bend to my will. IRM will sit where its told. one day, just one day...

Blow, Gabriel, Blow - Cole Porter

The Trouble Is, You're Not Having Any Fun

one day until the pharmaco test. and i have absolutely no willpower to get anything done! rather blog or random-surf or play DotA. dammit.

quite amazed that there are still people hanging around at the library today, although it seems like theyre mostly foreign students. stupid pharmaco test... making me feel like a loser being in the library on a public holiday.

wonder how many people actually read my blog? lets conduct an experiment: when you read this entry, click on the 'post comment' option under the entry, and write your name/nick and date and time that youre reading. just to satisfy my bored curiosity.

heres a siggie i stunned from neko_bijin of cbt.com cos i thought it was pretty cute!

See how the Fates their gifts allot,

For A is happy--B is not.

Yet B is worthy, I dare say,

Of more prosperity than A!

Is B more worthy? I should say

He's worth a great deal more than A.

If I were Fortune --which I'm not--

B should enjoy A's happy lot,

And A should die in misery--

That is, assuming I am B.

But condemned to die is he,

Wretched meritorious B!

Guardian Angel

2 days of blogging in one entry again.

saturday was pretty hectic. school was ok lah... the class seems to be falling sick one by one. pj was stricken with a bad case of the flu, and was making wierd rhinoceros noises all through the lab session in an attempt to stem the flow of mucus. go everything bent up except for the roach. damned if i aint indicating chromium as much as i can when i go to the clinic! and yeehau found out the hard way that mrs au can spot a difference of 0.1mm diameter in an SS wire.

orchestra was the usual drag. but after that we got down to filming the christmas stuff! should be interesting what comes out of all the time spent filming. mucho NG footage.

also have yet to find out what in the world pj was ho-ho-hoing about in the plaster room...

today was pretty slow. got the remaining bit of filming done, and then went home to slack. me and my brother managed to complete the whole of Halo 2! the lighting in some stages is absolutely atrocious... makes a few levels more labyrinthine than they should be.

and me ex found my long-missing miss saigon cd when her mum went to audit her cd collection! its been missing for like 2 years in her house... now i can finally get it back!

and here's the song thats been on my mind...

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Night And Day

Like the beat beat beat of the tom-tom
When the jungle shadows fall
Like the tick tick tock of the stately clock
As it stands against the wall
Like the drip drip drip of the raindrops
When the summer shower is through
So a voice within me keeps repeating

you, you, you

Night and day, you are the one
Only you beneath the moon or under the sun
Whether near to me, or far
It's no matter darling where you are
I think of you

Day and night, night and day, why is it so
That this longing for you follows wherever I go
In the roaring traffic's boom
In the silence of my lonely room
I think of you

Day and night, night and day
Under the hide of me
There's an oh such a hungry yearning burning inside of me
And this torment won't be through
Until you let me spend my life making love to you

Day and night, night and day

Night And Day - Cole Porter
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Down For The Count

was laid low by a bout of weird nausea yesterday so i couldnt blog. which was a pity because as days go it wasnt too bad.

strange absence of my pple at the prayer meeting, so lunch ended up as just me, uncle jason and auntie winnie. went to this japanese fried food place in taka. good shite, but at a combined cost of 70+ for 3 people i was pretty happy tt they decided to belanja.

spent the afternoon in the heeren spinelli's. cute girls many many, study lousy lousy. just wasnt in any mood to do the pharmaco, so i ploughed slowly through everything. doubt that a lot of it got retained. and at 5.30 i gave up and went shopping. got a number of things: CDs and Halo 2 being the most pertinent.

Halo 2 is kewl! how could anyone not like a game where stuff blows up? cept of course i was already pretty nauseous by the time i got home, so i was just watching my brother play. pwn aliens! buy halo!

today itself was ok. Prof Yap said my canine provi was really nice, even with the 2 pits on the facial surface caused by an aerated mix. apart from that its t3h shiny! *bling-bling* poor pj is still dying with her canine though, while the stupid onlay provi is just killing me. its so small and irritating! and as a side note, it was pretty damn funny seeing Prof Yap sing 'Deep And Wide' sunday-school style to explain the indications for cuspal protection.

felt really gross again during lunch, but this was rectified by prompt administration of Yu Pian Mi Fen Tang. but nonetheless i dont intend to stick around too long tonite. also because i want to watch the taped anime from last night which i missed watching while in a headachey stupour lying on my bed.

one day i will test the Katzung Conjecture and show that it is bullshit. one day...

Wings (Strong Mix) - Do As Infinity

On The Bridge To Avignon

had a disgusting mega-dinner, outeating the apetite on on legs, CE himself. think i overdid it though, feel like im going into my second trimester or something.

conversation of the brotherhood during dinner at one point mirrored the lunchtime conversation. why in the world do the class girls buy bikinis and then wear them under t-shirts where they cant be seen?

had an amazing behavioral science lecture. the shrink taking the class will be remembered not just for his weird surname (Fones) but also for his ability to make me not fall asleep. he had a loud voice and the ability to connect, and amazing synchronity with his slides. and he thinks well on his feet.

pbl was good. 3 questions and it was almost over... until we ended up designing RPDs. the hazard of being under a prostho goddess for pbl i suppose... but interesting nonetheless cos now i know how to design an rpd around very separated solitary abutments.

Lothar's Edge

lab today was so bad im amazed i didnt chicken wing myself to oblivion. i have awful IRM skills. its slowing me down to the point of distraction... and i find myself getting more angry at the labwork when it isnt cooperating. at least i didnt flip out when pj accidentally spilled water onto my crotch. haiz... getting splashed does not count as grounds for an yi shen xiang xu... except that suggesting it does make the suggester liable to getting double-teamed. cb AL...

americans call salbutamol albuterol. i call it a life-saver.

sometimes when the stress builds up i remember a time when i had a person i could turn to for a ready shoulder. and amidst the stress of dental school i really miss that. the shared times, the encouragement, the knowledge that whatever i did someone was looking out for me, ready to catch me if i should fall. just as i would catch her if she fell...

i could do with a whole day with a close friend just mucking around, shopping, eating, watching a movie, doing whatever!

What Does The Shadow Will?

F.I.R. fest in the library now. on to aspirin and the NSAIDs!

for 2 days in a row i've been getting hungry for dinner a full 45 minutes earlier than usual. weird! think im gonna go chicken rice myself after this...

had the chance to go to clementi for lunch today. had a bowl of Thaksin Beef Noodles, which have to be tried to be believed! they have like 4 branches now, although ive only tried the clementi one. good value for money. and went to get a pair of slippers and a pirated game after lunch. w00tz! need to find the time to install it though...

good patho session. the nasal prof was doing the practical session today, excellent pots-ing session. why cant pharmaco be like patho? the pills are just an abstract concept to me... little round things in different colours which ive never seen. not like lesions. necrosis, inflammatory cells, haemosiderin, candidiasis, signet ring cells, these i can see and grapple with!

and i still havent figured what in the world PJ was laughing about before lunch... whenever she says nothing it usually means something about the enquirer. ergo Lim Peh. haiz...

Ni De Wei Xiao - F.I.R.

Under My Bed Is A Layer Of Expired Dreams

majorly stuffed! got hungry at 6pm and went to pwn the following:

1 fish and chips set
2 chicken wings
1 cheng tng (cold)

d-d-d-domination!

and on the way back from my joyous gluttony, i ran into the stunning Ms Shen at the bus stop, applying lipstick with a brush and mirror while waiting for the bus, dressed to the nines. her look of surprise when i said hi was the textbook definition of adorable!

pharmaco is a drag as usual. it worries me that this subject may well be turning into a subject of death, because its just vital in so many ways.

since i cant get out of the country this break, think i'll see if i can help out at Auntie Wai Pek's clinic. not sure if i can be the sole help, cos of the female DA thing, but i think the experience will be good. sure beats rotting, since everyone else is like going everywhere and nothing major is shaking during that time period. with perhaps the sole exception of my ex's 21st birthday chalet party.

Music Gets The Best Of Me - Sophie Ellis-Bextor

Happiness is...

happiness is: a tray of chipsmore, 2 glasses of cold milk and someone to share the afore-mentioned with... looks like i aint happy then!

finnaly got my dad the replacement power drill, now i just have to give the bill to the lovely Ms Lee, and claim my 129 Yusof Ishaks. my dad was telling me the history of the lost drill, how it was the first power tool he ever bought while he was still a poor student in australia, when i was a young boy. the old drill had a lot of sentimental attachment apparently. so, to the @#$%^* who stunned the drill, a murrain upon ye scurvy hide, i say!

i am so in the deep end for christmas. clan ee (dover branch) is taking all the acting roles in the presentation, and theres no script or anything! we need at least a rough plan to work, right? i want something i can invite my classmates to with the peace of mind that i dont get maluated on stage.. or at least not maluated through un-l33t acting skillz.

Lydia - F.I.R.

And Now That I'm Here...

wasnt able to post last night due to login problems... think i really am a posting junkie!

The Katzung Conjecture:

whereby jon going for a hot solo library date with Mr Bertram G. Katzung is more interesting than going out with a particular girl that i like.

this conjecture was postulated to me last evening at the water cooler by aforementioned girl. and i think its bullshit. would love to conduct a study into its veracity! but no chance lah... tried asking her out today after school but she din seem too keen. whats wrong with a little platonic movie-watching anyhow?

DotA 5.80 is out! seems a little buggy, especially with reference to the new play modes. stan convinced me to leave the library early last night to play but it was not to be... his mum started to scold him. din have the mood to haul my fat ass off to study, so the night wasnt too productive. damn.

philosopical thought of the week:

The surgeon does not heal. He merely creates an environment, through his surgical intervention, that allows the body to heal itself.

Am I Just Paranoid Or Am I Stoned?

grade 1 radiograph! w00ts! at least the bitewings seem reasonably easy to do. spent the morning with Group 1 and my dear smooth-brained lab partner pj irradiating each other. her shot turned out good too, and there was something on my #16m marginal ridge that i need to check up on... also explained to above-mentioned smooth-brained madamoiselle via the Socratic Method why you cant leave exposed film in the room when taking X-Rays.

a rough reconstruction:

jon: oi! you never take your film out arr?
pj: cannot leave inside meh?
jon:it will expose lah...
pj: but i thought its outside the beam?
jon:you do realise that when we expose we all get out of the room right?
pj:*ponders* oh!

sometimes life is like that... you know it but you dont know that you know it. thats why i use the Socratic Method of questioning to teach rather than getting straight to it. its much more satisfying to come to a conclusion via synthesis and integration of prior knowledge than to be spoonfed. and i think it retains better too.

was supposed to have dinner with Jo today but she was feeling under the weather, so i ended up reading comics at Borders. not studying for sure, but fun. much more fun! and the time earlier at the esplanade library was utilised in reading journal articles on singing. the most thorough article on tone-deafness and its different manifestations ive ever read. good stuff!

here's my recommendation to everyone. watch Inuyasha. its on wednesdays to fridays at 11.30pm. great anime! start now before the plot advances! great fight sequences relieved by light comic scenes. 12 kingdoms at 11pm is of a more serious nature, and the plot is a bit slower but im sure it will pick up the pace. aah heck, watch it aniwei!

Fukai Mori

pharmaco in the library is making me bored and hungry. going home a little earlier tonite, cos theres the arts central anime thingy tonite if memory serves me correctly. 12 kingdoms and inuyasha!

onlay passed with 30 seconds of work as desired! now its just the issue of getting my provi work done. indirect-direct seems pretty okay frankly, cos of the large amount of pre-clinical work done at lab stage. but for the life of me i cant get the provi shell material to mix exactly the way i want it to! still have to bead-brush the margin and fix up a negative on the fitting surface of the shell, but this should be nice and quick.

pbl was a teensy bit disastrous cos preparations werent too good. but still a learning experience. its not so much in the tangible things, but the off-topic stuff like Dr Thean explaining about how to convince a patient that the bleeding he's experiencing after scaling is his fault. and how to explain OHI without big words. all the stuff we really need to know but have to pick up ourselves.

Deep Forest - Do As Infinity

The Funniest Thing In The World

today in patho we learned that hyperplastic prostate has nothing to do with metaplasia. somehow it was also the funniest thing in the world. and im sure shenhua now knows the difference between me pointing to my nads and me pointing to my innards...

had the most horrible DotA session ever! well, suppose that ya cant dominate every time. need to work on the Banehallow.

looks like trouble brewing for christmas. hate it when this happens...

What Is It They're Singing?

another kiroro-fest in the library! the juniors have anat tomorrow, and im trying to work on my pharmaco.

today went okay. killed 2 of my #24, and i was 150 seconds away from a signature for the blasted onlay prep. damn! also gave a straw star to a classmate...

cref earlier posts, sometimes i do question my motives. i know intellectually that i shouldnt chase, but theres this part of me that just wants to do nice things for no other reason than i like her. sure i get the warm fuzzy glow and all, but theres also this part of me that has alarm bells ringing.

damn i hope she doesnt read this.

looks like the Dental DotA gang will be on hiatus for a while. for the best i suppose. bloody pharmaco...

A City Changes Who You Are, It Creeps Beneath Your Skin

long day in school. pharmaco not as well-exercised as DotA!

have been thinking lately about goin somewhere over the holidays. last year i was frankly quite reluctant to shift my ass out of singapore during the break, but even then i went to the Chiang Rai area and did dental work in the hill-tribe villages. this year, no medical/dental missions, and it looks like 4 weeks with nothing to do. and i dont think theres anything here that would make me wanna stay.

anyone wanna donate to jon's desert island fund?

tests are up on the horizon again. have to start off on the pharmaco, and try to score respectably this time. also have DM and optec. looks like more reconstruction work ahead of me, cos of mucho lecture-napping.

why in the world is it so hard to find what i want for PBL?

Domination isnt about a favourite character per se, its a state of mind.

Compulsive Whistling Explained By Rogers And Hammerstein

When you walk through a storm,
Hold your head up high,
And don't be afraid of the dark.
At the end of a storm,
There's a golden sky,
And the sweet silver song of a lark.
Walk on through the wind,
Walk on through the rain,
Though your dreams be tossed and blown..
Walk on, walk on, with hope in your heart,
And you'll never walk alone...
Walk on, walk on, with hope in your heart,
And you'll never walk alone...
You'll never walk alone.

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i'd like to clarify that im not a Liverpool fan. but these lyric are from a Rogers & Hammerstein song which i happen to really like. just spent the last 2 hours watchin a documentary on central about their movie music. amazing stuff! always had this little fantasy about what life would be like if i wasnt doing what i do... but instead working in music or on the stage. the undeveloped facet of me, if you will.

bought Tenchu II for the XBox. now i know why the 'eck the SA is called Rikimaru. he gets mucho easier kills than in DotA, for sure! and im also horribly stuck on the first level! just cant find where to go, and with a panicky screaming geisha girl (read: civilian and hence not legitimate target) blocking my way to boot...

Christmas needs a major Fixing. a veritable miracle. and some pple need a good smiting, as per the definition given in The Ladykillers.