Beyond The Plane Of My Imagination

exams are up in 2 weeks. besides this marking the end of 1 year in clinics, and my utter lack of attempted competencies, the exams this year seem rather ominous. lets face it, the internal med and surgery admin don't seem to love us very much. lecturers not showing up, screwy ward round timings that mess with the doctors' work schedules... hope we all can pass this one. there's got to be more to this than looking for clubbing and splinter haemorrhages.

CBT looks like my latest greatest escape mechanism. my disciple's love of light mechs and maneuvre play seems to be developing quite nicely. in campaign, Warrick's Warriors have hit 2 lances and look all set to grow even more.

yesterday, Pastor Choo spoke of chicken curry. to paraphrase:
'chicken curry has an essential core which makes it a chicken curry. it must have chicken. it must have curry powder. but how each curry turns out depends on the values your family embraces. if your mum is health-conscious, your chicken curry will have no oil, and little salt. the chicken will have no skin. my mum wasn't a health freak. we were a Baba family, and the most important thing to us was that the curry be tasty...'
which sums up my feelings about food...

공중정원 (Garden In The Air) - BoA

Not My Cause

even with a rather wasted session Dr Yap still amazes me with new techniques and words of wisdom. i wonder if we really do make our patient's problems into our own, i usually try not to but this patient had a filling done which may not need to be there because it's indicated for RCT later. and even when i wanted to hold payment Dr Yap advised charging ayway. but i believe i have to be accountable, the patient is claiming from her company. on the one hand, another endo case is still manageable, but on the other hand if her tooth miraculously recovers i'll be happy too.

just over 2 weeks to exams and i can't find the motivation to study. the books are dry, and i need some nice coloured pens. this sucks.

Joanne has been in the hospital for about 3 weeks, absolutely record-breaking. amidst all her fears of TPN, as well as conversations with the patient today about pain, really emphasise how much of a patient's behaviour is influenced by fears of pain. which leads us to ask, can we confidently indicate RCTs, crown lengthening, double jaw surgery confidently if we're too scared to do it ourselves, and can't rationalise it out within ourselves to have it done. hope her GI gets back on track, cos she's basically been starving for 3 weeks. although not quite as damaging as a post-op catablic state, 8kg and counting of weight loss is quite powerful.

Para Machuchar Meu Coracao - Antonio Carlos Jobim

Who Needs Summer Days?

finally started proper work on my molar endo. working lengths determined for 3 of the 4 canals, and it feels good! TPH is my endo idol now, cos he taught us how to use a ZX and gave us a bit of rationale into obturation technique. hope that this endo turns out ok...

was reading some stuff online and found out that the song Summer Days by Do As Infinity is actually written in english. now because of Van Tomoko's garbled pronunciation, this wasnt apparent to me immediately. and so, i got hold of the lyrics and listened to the song again. it was freaking hilarious!

Summer Days

CHORUS
Summer days, I can't stand the summer days
Frozen cocktails and night fireworks
What's so great about them anyway?
Summer day, let it be some other day
Seaside motels and sex on the beach
Don't be thinking I went all the way

I hate summer days!

Rushing down the traffic, to the beach,
That's jammed for blocks and blocks
They ain't getting nowhere,
Still miles and miles left to go
Strutting down the street, the girls,
they try to impress their boyfriend to be
I give up and don't try
Every day is a bad hair day
Guys, they come up with lame pick-up lines,
Desperate to just get laid
Damn, give me a freaking break!

CHORUS

Goddamn summer days!

Kate was the one, who said that life was made to be enjoyed
Stop crinkling your face
Everything will turn out okay
Serving table to table up and down the isle
Had on a face I'd never seen
Whatever happened to her?
Who has stolen your smiles away?
Who said that summer can brighten the mood of fate?
Nothing is going to change
Damn, give me a freaking break!

CHORUS

Who needs summer days!

Summer days, they have never been the same
Once you left and were out of my sight
Leaving no trace behind
Summer day, why oh why on a summer day?
You were gone without saying goodbye
Taking it all away
No more summer days!

Summer Days - Do As Infinity

Who Am I?

why do i feel like life in school is becoming purposeless? was suddenly struck by a sense of melancholy while doing suction boy and having a generally bad session. my grades are crap. i have no will to do anything about it. my health is spiralling down the drain. i make mistakes in clinic that are totally avoidable. my romantic life has enough landmines in it to stop an armoured battalion. i need a holiday bad. and a secretary. and 6 million bucks. and a big hug.